This is the moment that causes fear and panic to rise up inside of me, leaving me powerless... The moment when I have stop and to actually take a look at myself in the mirror... When all my failed lives add up and only the fragmented pieces are left for me to find myself in! No wonder I don't deal well with separation -- it means I'm stuck with myself. And another piece of me dies that I once believed in... What's even left? The sad, broken little girl underneath it all -- no happier or any more figured out than before! What am I looking for anyway? What am I running away from?! I feel like I'm on a constant search for something that not even I am aware of... Something I can never seem to find! It's an endless torturous cycle that I don't know how to break out of. Every time I think I've found something, I just end up worse off than before. I feel like giving up! I have no motivation for life anymore...
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